Joanne
2011-11-11 15:19:07 UTC
I went out with a guy 3 years ago our senior year of high school, and we broke up 6 months later cuz my parents didnt approve. anyways. over the next 2 years, we became best friends and he decided to transfer to my school last year because I was lonely and I was a commuter, so it was hard to make friends.
You see, he already knew about christianity but he wasnt living the life. but after he started dating me he saw how i was different from other girls and started to get interested and want to learn more about Jesus. Anyways, so after he transfered from another school because he wanted to be closer to home and to me, he started to meet new people and join the christian club at school
so now he has so many friends, and i tell him all the time he's popular, and he's so busy, yet he says he doesnt like the word popular, and that even though people know him, he's sitll lonely.
but i've been a loner, and always the shy one, so he doesnt know what being lonely is about..
so lately ive been feeling very depressed and lonely, my bfff is always busy and i miss the old him, now he's forcing me to make friends, when i dont effing want to make friends. and when i went to the christian club, everyone acknowledged him, yet nobody else came up to say hi to me. i felt very hurt and disgusted, especially because I am a worship leader at my church and I would NEVER make the new guest feel left out.
I just hate the college I'm at.. i feel like ive ruined my whole college life and wont ever have fun... then ill get married to someone, where my life will be miserable, with more work..
im having the worst time of my life, while my ex-bf/bff, is so popular and im just a loner. he thinks that all his friends, eventually going to be MY FRIENDS. he thinks that the christian club at my college are MY friends yet i dont want to accept them.
HECK NO. any kind of people who dont talk to me are NOT MY FRIENDS. IM SO EFFING MAD AT MY LIFE. WHY THE EFF AM I HERE SOMETIMES I WONDER. I'd rather live in a poor country helping out poor kids, than being in america with some snobby ash christians at castle college.