Dear Anna Cutie, I hope this will help you understand this dilemma you find yourself in. What I am about to reveal to you is not cliché’. May the Lord bless…
When God created, He wanted to create some creatures who would really worship Him and obey Him and some to truly love Him. In order for this to be possible, He created them with free will (this included some orders of angels and of course humans). They had to have the ability (like Him) to have actual choice because there cannot be real love in the absence of the possibility to not love or even to be indifferent. Although I suppose there are some who would settle for a Stepford wife or a comtrolled android husband, this would never satisfy even a human (though perhaps some physically for a moment here or there).
This is even true of genuine thankfulness and even worship. For it to be genuine it must be freely given from the heart convinced, not as a result of being coerced or pre-programmed like some robot with pre-programmed phrases being endlessly varied and repeated.
When He created man (humankind, both male and female) He made them in His image with free volitional choice, but as Genesis 1:26 tells us He also gave THEM dominion over the things of the earth. What happened on earth was put into man’s power (though He has had to intervene on occasions so as to optimize the number of souls that will be able to obtain His precious goal). When the Serpent (metaphor for Satan) came he was able to “beguile” Eve (this means she was persuaded by his line of reasoning, and then with her help Adam also was first led to question God and His word and to question His motive and to become (like the devils) like a god to their self (Genesis 3:5). They disregarded His loving warning of what would happen and did it anyway (Genesis 2:17). Like a loving parent would to a loved child He warned them of the consequence of a certain kind of action (like when you were small and your parents said “Thou shalt not run out into the busy highway for in the day you do you shall become roadkill”) but they disregarded this warning of love (like all His commandments) and did their own will against His will (and at this point sin and death entered the world…dominion was transferred to him who mankind chose to believe and obey…Satan, who is now the god of this world).
Now then so the creation could maximize the opportunity for the optimal number of souls that would love Him (truly) and worship Him (genuinely) He instituted immutable laws (to establish and maintain order amidst the chaos). What the Bible calls sin is breaking these immutable laws (1 John 3:4).
Now let me give you the true gospel by way of analogy using the immutable law of gravity…
You have been told must not jump off a skyscraper or you will fall to your death. Now let’s pretend despite being told not to and signs warning you to stay away from the edge, in your self-will or pride, not having anyone tell YOU what to do, you decide to jump anyway (this is what happened when we willfully disregard our Father’s word) and now you are plummeting to your death (you chose to violate one of His immutable laws)…along comes the only one capable of saving you who made the perfect net…He calls out to you (though in your stupidity you do not really deserve it…myself included because I knew better and sinned anyway, many times back then)…so He calls out in time (before you become SPPLLAAATTT!!!) and offers you a net (His name is Jesus). You will surely perish….He calls out to you with His offer (John 3:16) over and over….but alas it is up to you to ask for it and want it….He will not force you if you insist on being your own lord and becoming roadkill…He will grieve (Ezekiel 18:23-32) but He is faithful and cannot lie and He gave you the freedom to choose and dominion here is ours (He will not violate this because His love IS genuine and true)…
So that is the true gospel not accept Christ or go to hell…no beloved Anna…you are already going there because you violated His immutable laws (you jumped even though all who loved you said please don’t) but He loved you so much He Himself became a man and allowed Himself to sinlessly be tortured, beaten, and crucified, to gain back the dominion…(which only another man could do without God violating His own word)…so there you have it…a net…Romans 6:23 so Acts 2:38…your way or YHVH…you choose!