Perhaps you got "high", highmindead, by minding "high" things; which the Bible clearly exhorts us NOT to do: Job 41: 34; Rom 11:20; Rom 12:16; 1Tim 6:17; 2Tim 3:4.
Not to mention Rom 16:17 exhorts us to mark & avoid them who cause "division"; And yer sweet & bitter "Jesus" flat out said he came not to bring peace, but rather a "sword" of warfare: Mt 10:34 and "division": Lk 12:51; Jn 7:43; Jn 9:16.
Perhaps being a woman, perhaps a silly woman taken captive, you haven't noticed the God(Majesty) on "high"(Heb 1:3) in the plural and divided "heavens"(Heb 8:1) is a divided God of divided heavens, law and grace heavens, on his left and right hands. But above such "division" of the God on "high" is the God of all grace that reigns from a throne of grace in "heaven" that is "higher than the heavens". Not to mention getting "high" is a no no (a "Nay Nay" to both the rider and the horse it rode in on, rather than a "Yea Yea" to grace and truth), a no no whether you go left or right on high, for such is endless warfare of scape-goats vs dumb-sheep, not peace; Only a childish blame game that inducts them all of them vs them (who oppose themselves) into a hall of shame rather than fame. Eg: "these all died" and "received not the promise": Heb 11.
Perhaps you haven't yet noticed the difference between Jesus and Christ, nor that eternal salvation is "through Jesus->Christ":
Jesus: division and not peace
Christ: peace and not division
Jesus: made under the law
Christ: the end of the law
To wit: that God was in "Christ" reconciling the world
Perhaps getting "high" on "Jesus" standing right distracted you from noticing "Christ": "the end of the law" being seated right, seated denoting the law/grace matter is "settled" in Christ, for "in him there is no sin" (no law = no sin and death thereof the law; for "where no law there no transgression"). For Christ is our "peace" (not our division nor our warfare) who hath abolished the law: Eph 2:14. We are called the body of "Christ"(not Jesus).
The God of all grace make you perfect, strengthened, settled; after ye(do err) suffer awhile in yer Mt 22: 36-40 law law: 1Pet 5:10. Ye shall know the truth... shall make you free, free of believing every spirit, or getting tossed to & fro by the spirits.
The "grace" of our Lord Jesus Christ with you all. Amen.