hi, i'm shane, and it sounds like,you get trapped in these addicted sponserships,let me fisrt tell you a little bit about me,an then i'll give you some feedback, an remember,''my experience'' as we were all raised in the catholic church . an my mom took me away from it when i
was young, an, i also had a rough life, cause i never thought i was good enough, it may look like peaches an cream, from thee outside, but it was hell inside an outside, i spent 5years on the streets, an it
took me along time before i finnaly woke up, an wanted to change, i've been robbed 8times, cause
i attracted the wrong people who thought they were my freinds
but wer'nt..Anyway,,some preachers are on a power trip
kick, an try to put themselfs above god an put you down , but i i have learned from it, to
not be that way, an not to blame others, an controll others, i want to blame my family sometimes
cause they wer'nt always there, for me, like i wanted them to be, but they have there own kids to deal with,
an they think once your 18 your on your own, an it took me along time to not be so dependent on my mother, who was always there for me, an now that i've realizesd,i put myself through hell, an finnaly realized that it was me?,but now i own a house, an i think i'm starting to realize that i'm finnally becoming a human being, now!,My experience, that changed my life was through a natural
psychedelic, when i finnaly was open to thee experience, an ready to change!, an it changed
my life, and opened me up, an freed me from, my negativity an addictions an bad ways of thinking
an allowed me to see myself from within, that it was me an not them, as i always thought it was.
now,my experience with them, when i was a kid, is that, all my pastors that i depended on,
have seem to all see themselfs as gods?, an it took a long time to realize that they wer'nt? an when
they started really seeing them selfs as gods, it took me awhile, but i caught on,to it, that they were controlling me, an when i seen that! i got up out of there! cause no man is god, an god is not seperate
from us, we are all one with god, we are one in the same god it's not a white man with a white beard.
also, you should not put your faith an trust in any man, an we are all conected to to the one an she
who i choose to call as my higher power the eternal lovelight! an she is a loving god an not a hating one, ya see it's ''both!'' ''god'' is not above us or below us, we are equall, with her,as she is within, but as i must point out, that
we all have are own different walk of life, an if i can give you a suggestion, to read some books on
ram dass or timothy leary, who populerized THINK FOR YOURSELF! AND QUESTION-AUTHORITY
Which is the best advice a freind could give you, even the bible does'nt say that, an you know why!
cause in the 4th century the christans took alot of stuff out of there,that wer'nt relavent to what they
they wanted, which was to run the church the way they wanted to run it, power control an munipulate
people out of there money, using faith as a tool to play god, an be little somebody, like they tried to do with me, an i caught on to it, an they got mad, cause they did'nt have the power over me anymore.
an they harrased me until i had to threaten them, with a lawsuit, an then they finnaly gave up,an now
everytime i see them, they give me nasty mean looks, an this was in a penacostal church,when i
did'nt have a place to stay,an,i could go on, but i want to here more from you,,and how i can be of help
i would like to become good freinds with you, i am on facebook, i will ad you to it if you want, to
email me it is shanebes@gmail.com i hope i have enlightend you, i am a very open minded person, an
remember, that what works for me might not work for you,ok? write back, an you can feal
free to talk to me anytime, i hope i was of help. love yerself, from a sincere freind,shane,
an a quick quote is to''Think for yourself is to question Authority! And to Thinik for your self is to put
yourself in a state of ''vulnerable''-open-mindedness-Caotic-confused-vulnerablility! to inform yourself! ok cut!.that should keep ya thinking for a while,, talk soon an take care, can't wait to here from ya. bye!
BEST!