I've been a hospital bed, Magnesium Sulfate being pumped into me through an IV in the hopes of bringing my blood pressure down enough so that I wouldn't be at risk of fatal seizures. My kidneys were failing. My pituitary had swollen so badly that it was pressing against my optic nerve to the point that my eyesight was being destroyed AND they thought it was a brain tumor (one of the doctors even wanted to "operate" on the same day he made the "diagnosis"). My 6½ month fetus was in danger of miscarrying, so they did an emergency c-section and pulled him out at 3½ pounds. 3½ pounds and he had no idea how to eat OR how to breathe properly.
I stayed at 4 hospitals, rode in 2 ambulances and a helicopter, had more IV's cut into my arms than you can imagine, had one arterial IV that spurted blood all over my bed, saw over a dozen specialists, and most of them told my husband that when it came to surviving, it would either be me or the baby, and maybe neither.
I'm alive and my baby is now nearly 2 years old. I didn't believe in God then and I don't believe in him now. No matter what happens to me, to my baby, to you, to anyone, GOD DOESN'T EXIST. No matter how afraid or happy I am, there is no God. The god concept is logically impossible regardless of what happens to me and you.
I don't have a single problem with morality. The difference is that I condone HUMAN compassion and altruism and Christians, many many Christians, cannot conceive of ANY reason to be moral beyond "God said so". And I do fear... I fear death. It's not the unknown... I know exactly what's going to happen. I'm going to cease to be. That scares me more than I can explain. AGAIN, this has no bearing on reality. The concept of god does not correspond to reality. This has NOTHING TO DO WITH ME.
AGAIN... it doesn't matter how happy or sad or afraid or content I am. "God" is logically impossible. God doesn't exist. Neither do any of the other god concepts.