ISLAM i need help, i want to become a good muslim...i need to change and there are lots of other things aswell?

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asala mu alaykum to all

MAY ALLAH HELP ME, MAY ALLAH INSHALLAH SENT SOME ONE TO HELP ME AND BRING HAPPYNESS INTO MY LIFE. AND BELIEVE AS WELL...

PLEASE READ IT AND DO IT FOR ALLAH ATLEAST...FIAMA NILLAH TO U ALL..
i know everything i wrote might be like crap to u guys, but i dont know, i dont want to write everything down,,..I JUST NEED SOME ONE TO TALK ABOUT EVERYTHING ...HELP ME PLEASE..I NEED STRANGERS TO TALK ABOUT MY PROBLEMS....

own people just get u into trouble..dats why..


i dont know, but i want to change. since i was a young, i dreamt of strange thing. everything regarding islam. now i regret, because i havent follow those dreams. now i stopped having those dreams.

my heart is full of fear, but sometimes when i am lonely and feel left alone, i think of ALLAH the most but i want to thin of ALLAH all the time.

I stopped praying and feel very lazy. my believe is not as strong as it used to be anymore.

i know there are many people who know more than me, about islam and and and.. but as far as i know, as far as people told me, I know a lot about my religion.

I have dome many mistakes aswell i regretted aswell. ALLAH always saved me when i was in trouble. ALLAH gave me ev.rythng in life, I have asked for.

I dnt know why, een though i got ev.thing i wanted and i still get it, i dnt want anythng anymore. i tell my self i want to go to allah.. but im scared to be infront of him, because of my sins. i mean many people did sind, but still...

My heart says i should start wearing hijab as wel.

as far as i know and people told me, i know many things about Islam. I dnt do bad sins, i just dnt receit the quran, dnt pray and dnt wear hijab..

now i want to purify my self.. so i wud like to know any god surah, which could help me. please... some one out there, please help me. i changed in a year, all the good deeds in me are almost gone. I need a jihad for the sins i am doing and i have done.

i want to wear hijab, but sometimes i think, what if people gonna stare at me, when im gonna be in a place alone and all around me are starring at me, as people think bad of muslims. What if i go to marriages and feel bad, that im wearing hijab...

once i started wearing hijab i even used to dress myself fully in black...went to a marriage like that, by just showing my face and now one paid me any attention,which made me feel bad.. i dnt know.. what to do... i need help.. sometimes i dont want to live. i tell allah to take me away from this life as i have too many problems aswell. but im scared of allah aswell.. even if allah wud forgive me, i would feel shy infron of allah, for my sins,

but i dnt want to go to jannat aswell, nor to hell. i want to go to allah because no one loves me more than ALLAH no one. I am a very unhappy person. i hate my self and all other human being on earth. all people are mean, selfish greedy or full with jelousy. our prophets (PBUH) are the best, after Allah..people are injustice.. i hat everythng around me...sometimes i want that allah will finish ev.thng, the whole world. i want to write so many thnigs, but done know where to start

I WANT 1 or 2 PEOPLE TO LISTEN ME. I WANT TO TALK AND KNOW MORE ABOUT ISLAM.
I NEED HELP URGENTLY. SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE LIVIN IN MEKKAH FOR EVER.. BUT HOW? I WANT TO LEAVE MY HUSBAND EVERYTHING, MY PARENTS ...EVERYONE... I WANT PEACE AND WANT TO LIVE ALONE..

im too kindhearted....i said that stuff, but within a minute my heart starts melting...now i feel sorry for writing that, but i dont know what i want...i just know, i want allah

ANOTHER THING, WHICH MAKES ME FEEL SCARED, ARE MY PARENTS AND MY LITTLE SISTER, I WANT TO BE THERE FOR THEM, IN THEIR BAD TIMES. MY HUSBAND IS FULL OF SECRETS. HE IS DIFFERENT... BUT NO ONE IS CORRECT, NOT EVEN MY PARENTS OR NOT EVEN I AM...

Please help me... I need a sura, which could help me..im getting mad, im getting crazy...

ALLAH HAFIS,

I WILL WAIT FOR AN ANSWER AND HOPE THAT SOME ONE OUT THERE WILL ANSWER ME. I WILL BE CHECKING WHENEVER I CAN, IF SOMEONE WANTS TO HELP ME.

MAY ALLAH HELP ME, MAY ALLAH INSHALLAH SENT SOME ONE TO HELP ME AND BRING HAPPYNESS INTO MY LIFE. AND BELIEVE AS WELL...

PLEASE READ IT AND DO IT FOR ALLAH ATLEAST...FIAMA NILLAH TO U ALL..

Answer 1

Salam. Read this ayah carefully.



3:31. Say (O Muhammad to mankind): "If you (really) love Allâh then follow me (i.e. accept Islâmic Monotheism, follow the Qur'ân and the Sunnah), Allâh will love you and forgive you of your sins. And Allâh is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful."



Is it True Love when you keep disobeying the One you claim you love ?



So....If you really love Allah, begin by Never missing any prayer Ever again. (►I want to hear from you that you will do this) ►The second thing I want to hear from you is, you will regularly read the Qur'an in the language you understand while thinking about what you read (Begin from surah 67)



As for your other problems, then they can all be solved....But you have to begin somewhere, and the above 2 suggestions are Very important for you. (If you become a good believer, with what you can do, then regarding other things which may be beyond your control and understanding at the moment...then you can expect Allah swt to help you and guide you from places and ways you never expected). Allah swt has said :



65:2...And whosoever fears Allâh and keeps his duty to Him, He will make a way for him to get out (from every difficulty). 65:3. And He will provide him from (sources) he never could imagine. And whosoever puts his trust in Allâh, then He will suffice him. Verily, Allâh will accomplish his purpose. Indeed Allâh has set a measure for all things.



But You need to begin by doing what Allah swt has commanded first. Otherwise, can you expect the help and guidance of Allah ?



There is a hadith where the Prophet saws said “Allaah, may He be glorified and exalted, says: ‘I am as My slave thinks I am, and I am with him when he remembers Me. If he remembers me to himself, I remember him to Myself; if he remembers Me in a gathering, I remember him in a gathering better than it; if he draws near to Me a handspan, I draw near to him an arm’s length; if he draws near to me an arm’s length, I draw near to him a fathom’s length; if he comes to Me walking, I go to him at speed.” Narrated by Muslim (2675).



So first, you need to go towards Allah by obeying Him....then He will also come towards you better. If you don't, then you shouldn't expect anything but depression, hatred in your heart, difficulty, unease....and the reality is, these feelings are a great mercy from Allah for those who learn and return back to Allah, and repent, and obey him. So I hope you will consider my 2 advices above. They are very important.



Allah Knows Best, May Allah swt guide us, ameen, Wassalam.

Answer 2

Asalaamu alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh, sister. I can't give you Surahs since I'm still new enough to Islam to really know which ones would help you most. I CAN tell you that it was very hard for me to wear hijab for a while too. I live in an area where there's a lot of Islamophobia. I've had people swear at me, throw things, spit. But through it all, Allah is there. And the people at my Masjid are always there too. One thing that helps me to do prayers is keeping an alarm clock on the computer There's an adhan program you can download. :-) If you just need someone to talk to, I've had similar thoughts to you and I can listen.

Answer 3

You can not change anything in destiny, what ever is in your destiny you will get. Add: Esaqualy if you could change things in destiny then it wouldunt be called Destiny, we can not know about our destiny until it arrives and play's a part in our life.

Answer 4

stick to society culture holiday Ramadan section

Answer 5

get away from it all. try christianity. its better god helps you when you need it you just have to ask and u shal recieve.