Do you think God Is Testing me by putting me through Challenges?

Question

Procrastination is one hell of a Drug at 23yrs old right now i just feel Worthless like i have nothing to live for anymore..like i say im going to do things and never go through with them i say i want to be a better me more out going then i ever was.. growing up as a kid i never played with friends i played with toys or whatevrr but i kinda just stood to myself even through high school i nevrr was active never had a interest.. and i regret Not actually taking high school serious but its lime how can you when you never really had any real friends just Associates...and i remeber when i was in the 9th grade i almost joined this Theater class but i felt like i was going to look stupid and i wasnt that type of person who wanted to be center of Attention..much as i told myself i wanted to be popular i think in all reality i wanted just to be notice more and not have fake friends and as im typing this i just want to cry because like i dont know what i want to do or where to start pr who to turn to..and yes im a Christian but still like i just wonder what is my purpose am i meant to be a Craftsman because back in high school when i was in the 11th i attended a volcational school and it was something for kids that have something to fall on once they graduated well like they would atleast have a Skill and some type of idea about what they wanted to do if College wasnt a interest well me i had vision of going to college but then it was like a carpentry i could do..but i was thinking about the money and also it was something i liked doing but when i graduated it was like dont sell yourself short...go out and experience whats els is out there do stuff that you couldnt do in high school and it was like where do i go how do i start.. and i was really confused because i coudlnt push myself to do it but i had interest..and i dont know why i guess because i guess i know im not that person to be out going so why put myself in that position...and at times ot feels like i dont know myself because when i have a hobbie like i like to gossip...and then its like when i find out what journalist have to do its more then what what we see on tmz and those other hollywood gossip shows you gotta start somewhere but i guess i dont want to put hard work in into it..but yeah my mom she thinks i should get into a trade school...because if i was serious about journalism i would go through alot before i could get a job like working at Tmz or whatever...and at times i wish i was younger then 23 i want to go back when i was 14 and start all over ...it sucks knowing that your not that type of person.. like i can be out going when i feel comfortable.. but yeah i want to Go to New york or lps angelas to start my life over...ive been to new york once and the vibe there is so cool...

Answer 1

Given the results Christianity has delivered to you, I'm wondering how you could still believe in that nonsense.



There is no one testing you but YOU. There is no one who can start to help you but YOU. Stop waiting for Daddy to come and save you. You aren't a kid anymore. Live like a grown up and find a grown-up religion, not one that keeps you scared and helpless.



You can wait for god all your life, or you can get off your butt and seek help and work HARD.



Your problem is that you haven't paid your dues yet, just wasted a lot of time.



Fortunately for you---your good luck!--is that you ARE young enough to WAKE UP!

Answer 2

You sound the same way a lot of people I've known/heard sounded when they complained about how drugs ruined their life.



Except you didn't say 'drugs'.



How sheltered have you been? Or are you concealing something?



I'm not saying "Go pick up a drug habit" or anything..., I'm just sayin'...., WTF happened then? You minght think LA and NY are one of The Promised Lands.., but I've been to LA a bunch of times. I've seen it. Driven it. Walked it. Lived in LA county many years.



Dirty. NY probably is, too.



You would have to know someone in the first place in order for those dreams to come true easily. You could 'work it'..., but you'd have to bring something to the table.



Talent, for one thing. Unless you are a prodigy..., you have to refine your talents into something that they can work YOU for.



It is reciprocal out there in the real world. FYI.



So.., some places sex doesn't get you in. Talent can..., if you can handle that.., it can be LA or NY and all of that for journalism or any media.



You have to know someone or something to make it worth it for THEM. Even if you are standing at a machine in LA..., it is still dirty there. Dirtier than in other nearby cities in So Cal.



People who follow a dreams to The Big City sometimes end up in 'prostitution', one way or another.



That's all I'm trying to say.

Answer 3

Yes!



God is just, and he will not relent to discipline you if he loves you. So take heart - if you are facing challenges, it is only because he loves you.



I went through a similar thing. Do not despise God for not letting your life be easy. Accept that you got yourself into the rut, and ask God for assistance to dig your way out of it.



It is a great faith builder to rely on God to help you through your struggles.



Another hint I have for you:



Many times in life, God doesn't answer a prayer because he wants you to use the logic and reason that he gives to you. Always make wise decisions.



Also, keep in mind that this earth is sinful and temporary. Christ has many great things in store for you. Persevere and win this race.

Answer 4

You are going through a very difficult time now and it's not necessary to be so hard on yourself. It seems like your parents were very demanding of you and expecting you to be the way they had planned for you. Don't give up so easily. And don't think, because you are 23 years old, you know where you are going. Have you ever thought that God has a greater plan for you? No, you are not being tested. All God wants for you is to ask him to lead you in direction of your life and he will. We have so much to be thankful for. Be encouraged and know that God is with you. Allow him to lead your path and life, and he will. Give time to God and he will lead your ways and clear your mind of all that confusion that satan is bringing to you. In Jesus' name I demand satan be removed from your life and the light of the Lord , Jesus shine upon you. In His name only, AMEN!

Answer 5

Everything in the Judeo/Christian Bible has been stolen and corrupted from religions predating Judaism, Christianity, and Islam from hundreds to thousands of years. Through Judaism and its tool of Christianity, all of the original spiritual teachings from around the world, (which are CONCEPTS) have been stolen from, lumped together into the "one," and corrupted into Jewish archetypes and characters and fictitious places. This has given the Jewish people as a whole a false history, political power and "spiritual" authority to which they are not entitled.



The bible is a very powerful subliminal tool to control the masses. One can see this is a man-made work as there are endless contradictions. The bible has been systematically drummed into the minds of the populace from a very early age. A lie must always be enforced as opposed to the truth which can stand on its own. Because spiritual knowledge and occult power have been removed and kept in the hands of a "chosen" few, the unknowing populace has been helpless against it. The agenda here is to create a one-world slave state with the "chosen" few ruling at the top. The perpetrators of course blame Satan to create a necessary distraction, while they use occult power to accomplish their ends. They have a history of stealing from and blaming their enemies for everything they really are and do, while always holding themselves in the highest esteem and innocence.



The original religions now known as "Satanism" (by the way, "Satan" means "enemy" in Hebrew), were all based upon what is known as the "Magnum Opus" or Great Work. The one known as "Satan" is our True Creator God. He was prevented by the other Gods from finishing his work on humanity, that of the godhead. The godhead is physical and spiritual perfection. Now, if you continue to read on, I will prove this.

Answer 6

Jesus saves. Romans 10:9

Acts 3;19.

Answer 7

Yes. He teaches us many things through those tests

Answer 8

only Jesus could have given you the strength to write all that