You have procured many things upon your self. You lived your life like Frank Sinatra (he did it his way)
You lived a life that went astray from the Bishop and Shepherd of your soul.
The bible says that whatsoever is not of faith is sin, and also says that faith comes from hearing the Word of God. This is so that we would see the source of faith: for the faith of the Word is according to the way and thought and will of God. If we confess Jesus the Lord of our lives, Just as we are admonished to; if you have risen with Christ seek those things above where Christ is seated. It is clear and evident, then we are going to let go of our way and thought and will for His way thought and will because that is where faith comes from, and these are vested in His Word: For God has made Christ to be unto us wisdom, righteousness sanctification and redemption. The righteousness of faith speaks on this wise, Romans 10: 6-10 say not in your heart who will ascend into heaven, that would not be answering the witness of God, because that would be to bring Christ down again,; or say not who will descend into the deep, because that would be bringing Christ up from the dead again. If every time someone wanted proof, and does not rely on the witness of God as though He is as a man who can lie, or the son of man that must repent, well you are off line, totally off line, the severing of sin, the sin of unbelief, who says there is no God, even when hearing the voice of God. But what says faith? If you shall believe from your heart (the witness of God) that God raised him from the dead, you have believed unto righteousness.
Now all your debt and all your stuff is yours, and God forgives you, just as God forgives the daughter who gets pregnant, and who is filled with godly sorrow, and turns her heart over to God, who abundantly pardons, and forgives her, but she will be a mother to her child, God doesn't take the baby and let it go down the drain with the bath water. But now He says is His, that is under His blessing and Providence.
There are many businesses who do not function according to God moral and civil laws, and while they don't, the child of God can appeal to the higher Authority (which is God) for there is no power by that of God's power, Romans 13.
You are under a great challenge, and it isn't as a fiery furnace and to say it is going to keep you from living a christian life, you are without faith and are trying to dump on God or the world as Adam blamed Eve.
How many men being evil will give their son who ask them for an egg, would he give him a scorpion; or a serpent for a fish? Now therefore, will not your heavenly Father which is in heaven give them who ask Him for good things? Ask God in Jesus name to give to you the baptism of the Spirit with a believing heart. Call yourself to a solemn time of seeking God about the baptism of the Holy Spirit, shut out the world with all its troubles and cares, be determined in heart and ask, then after you ask don't require feelings, but rather on the bases of God's Word for He watches over His Word to perform it, ask and then say this; Greater is he that is in me, then he who is in the world and thank God for giving you His Precious Holy Spirit. Tell God you want to live to the praise of the glory of God's grace, and need and want the Holy Spirit to understand the bible. Everything I have said is faith , faith from His word and if you will ask with these words of faith God will hear you, 1 John 5: 14-15, Galatians 3: 5, Hebrews 9: 16-17, 1 Corinthians 11: 24-26