Debilitating emotions are experienced by many at some time or another. Questions brought to mind when one is in an emotional pit are, "Could this ever be the will of God, who created me?" "Is God too small to help me?" "Are my problems too big for Him?"
However, if you will take a few moments to consider letting God truly be God in your life right now, He will prove just how big He really is! "For nothing will be impossible with God" (Luke 1:37). Perhaps scars from past hurts have resulted in an overwhelming sense of rejection or abandonment. That may lead to self-pity, anger, bitterness, vengeful thoughts or ways, unhealthy fears, etc., that have caused problems in some of your most important relationships. However, suicide would only serve to bring devastation to loved ones you never intend to hurt and emotional scars that will have to be dealt with the rest of their lives.
Why should you not commit suicide? Friend, no matter how bad things are in your life, there is a God of love who is waiting for you to let Him guide you through your tunnel of despair and out into His marvelous light. He is your sure hope. His name is Jesus.
This Jesus, the sinless Son of God, identifies with you in your time of rejection and humiliation. The prophet, Isaiah, wrote of Him, "He grew up before him like a tender shoot, and like a root out of dry ground. He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him. He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering. Like one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not. Surely he took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows, yet we considered him stricken by God, smitten by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed. We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all" (Isaiah 53:2-6).
Friend, all this Jesus Christ endured in order that you might have all your sins forgiven! Whatever weight of guilt you carry around with you, know that He will forgive you if you humbly repent (turn from your sins, to God). "…call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you will honor me” (Psalm 50:15). Nothing you have ever done is too bad for Jesus to forgive. Some of His choicest servants in the Bible committed gross sins, like, murder (Moses), murder and adultery (King David), and physical and emotional abuse (the Apostle Paul). Yet, they found forgiveness and a new abundant life in the Lord. "Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin" (Psalm 51:2). "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!" (2 Corinthians 5:17).
Why should you not commit suicide? Friend, God stands ready to repair what is "broken"... namely, the life you have now, the life you want to end by suicide. The prophet Isaiah wrote: "The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, a to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion—to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor" (Isaiah 61:1-3).
Come to Jesus, and let Him restore your joy and usefulness as you trust Him to begin a new work in your life. "Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth will declare your praise. You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it; you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise" (Psalm 51:12, 15-17).
Will you accept the Lord as your Savior and Shepherd? He will guide your thoughts and steps—one day at a time—through His Word, the Bible. "I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you" (Psalm 32:8). "He will be the sure foundation for your times, a rich store of salvation and wisdom and knowledge; the fear of the Lord is the key to this treasure" (Isaiah 33:6). In Christ, you will still have struggles, but you will now have HOPE. He is "a Friend who sticks closer than a brother" (Proverbs 18:24). May the grace of the Lord Jesus be with you in your hour of decision.
If you desire to trust Jesus Christ as your Savior, speak these words in your heart to God. "God, I need you in my life. Please forgive me for all that I have don